Hello again, blog…

Will Cotton, Cotton Candy Cowboy, 2019, oil on linen, 96 x 72 inches.

It’s been a while, dear blog. Sadly I just see a long line of blog drafts from the past few months in the backend of this website—fragments of thoughts that I’ve tried to flesh out into full posts, but have evidently failed at (lol).

Anyway, I really shouldn’t be writing this post either because school and college application season have scarily kicked into full gear for me. Let’s call this ‘productive procrastination,’ maybe? It feels good to write again, listening to unreleased Lana Del Rey songs on a sunny Saturday. (Statistics homework can wait for later …)

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about this line from a song I heard a few weeks ago …

“Happiness is not a destination, it’s a choice.”

I find it really easy to trap myself in a cycle of stress and dissatisfaction—lamenting that I won’t be able to ‘have fun’ or ‘feel free’ until college applications are over, or until I graduate, or until I find a good path in life … et cetera, et cetera.

But then wouldn’t I never find myself feeling happy? Tomorrow is always one day after today—but I’ll only ever be able to live in today, right? I might as well just settle in and appreciate the life that I’m living through—today.

Not much more that I wanted to say other than that in this post, honestly. If this ever makes it out of my drafts and I feel confident enough to make this blog public again, then: dear reader, thank you for spending a little bit of your life on this web page! I hope you liked that quote.

Love,

Michelle